I don’t blog as much as I thought I would when I first opened this account. Sometimes I feel like my mind moves so quickly that my fingers can’t keep up. There’s times where I hold so much inside, I get overwhelmed trying to write it all down. An update with mental health, I still […]


Well, it’s been a while. I’m doing fine, still struggling with depression and anxiety, but other than that I’m in a much better position now than I was a few months ago. I hope I never get that dark again. Lately I’ve been feeling like my anti depressants haven’t helped like they used to when […]


After somewhat sorting things out with my grandmother, I’ve still been in hiding. I’m upset that I let my family see the true anger in me. I’ve been a little embarrassed so I’ve been walking around with my tail in between in my legs. Within the last day or two I’ve come out of my […]


My chest has been weighed down the last few days from all of the chaos. I finally decided to say something to my grandmother. We went back and forth and it really didn’t get anywhere, in my opinion. She doesn’t understand what I’m saying and plays victim. Saying things like “everything is my fault” or […]

Cooling down.

I just got home from the gym and all hell broke loose. I knew it was going to happen, but I didn’t think it would happen this soon. My uncle has been making comments to my grandmother about the fight between us while I’m not around. But I can very well hear him. I came […]


It finally happened, I had a breakdown at work. Sigh. Let’s start from the beginning. This morning I didn’t have a desire to do anything. I was able to get up and make a small breakfast, but I knew that was all I was going to be able to stomach. While making my eggs, my […]

Same stuff, different day.

The feeling of depression, anxiety, and worthless have become overwhelming once again. I’ve been on Wellbutrin for a week and one day. My doctor told me to take 150 mg the first week, and once the side effects subside, up it to 300 mg. She said do this within 1-2 weeks, but mainly 2 weeks. […]